Aug 16th - 22nd 2025

Starting weight: 298.2lbs (Oct 2023)

Lightest weight so far: 262.4lbs (Mar 21st 2025)

End of last week: 271.0lbs 

Aug 16th - ?

Aug 17th - ?

Aug 18th - ? 

Aug 19th 276.4lbs 

Aug 20th - 275.8lbs 

This week is all about revisiting how it feels when the scale does weird things that don't seem right. This is a massive jump up in comparison to my calorie consumption and my activity level. Has my diet been perfect this week, no, but i've not been in a massive calprie surplus. Have i moved my body a lot this week, yes! I walked for 90 mins on Fri, 3 hours on Saturday and around 90 mins on Mon..... and then I checked my Flo App and I'm due to get my period in the next 48 hours. 

So is there any point in assigning massive emotional turmoil to the fact that this is highest number i've seen in a fair while - no, there isn't. Is it hard to see that number and not feel like a massive failure! Yes! This number makes me cringe and it makes me feel like a total failure. It makes me want to sneak off to the shop and buy £15 worth of chocolate. (This could also be the inpending period talking - i always crave ALL the sweet stuff in the run up). I've increased my water intake to tackle the bloating and the constipation - another delightful symptom I often get just before The Period Fairy arrives - and being mindful of what I'm eating whilst craving all the nice stuff.... and in the next few days, I'm hoping to see that number come back down. 

This weekend is the last big celebration weekend of the summer season for us as a family. We have a 50th wedding anniversary and a family birthday party back to back and then it really is back to the school term routine and hitting the gym. Back to reality as the Autumn Term gets going. 

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