An Introduction....

So, I guess I'm starting this blog as an online journal for my journey with weight loss - that's the nutshell. The whole story is a lot longer than that.

I'll try not to ramble too much. 

I have struggled with my self image for as long as I can remember. Even when I was much smaller than I am now - I thought I needed to lose weight. 

Over the years, I'd tried ALL the programmes and has some success and then as I soon as I stopped the programme, or lost interest, or it got too hard - I put the weight back on. 

I lost a large amount of weight in the run up to my wedding and felt amazing that day - even though I would have actually like to have been even thinner in all honestly. 

I've had 2 babies since 2019 and my weight has been very up and down since then. I lost a lot of weight breastfeeding and then gained a lot back in my second pregnancy. 

Then my eldest ended up in hospital and I spent 10 days sitting by his bed whilst he was very very poorly and just ate, and worried and ate and worried. I put on over a stone in 10 days. That was a very hard fact to reconcile with myself. For a long time I felt a lot of shame and guilt around that number and how quickly I had gained so much weight.... but I was coping with intense emotion stress in the only way I knew how - eating. 

I was feeling incredibly uncomfortable in myself - I had never been so big, I was at a clothing size I was ashamed of, I wasn't able to say anything nice about myself any more..... I needed something drastic to change. 

That is when I met Susan..... 

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