My Impossible Goal!

My perfectionist brain loves the idea of an impossible goal! 

It holds absolutely no weight - I can't achieve it because it impossible.... so if I never get there, I haven't ever really failed. 

It allows me to reach big - crazy big - but never feel the pressure of failing at it! 

My Impossible Goal is to lose 100lbs from my highest weight. It feels ridiculous to say it - and that's why it's brilliant. If I lose 100lbs amazing.... if I don't get there.... it was impossible anyway. As a perfectionist-this helps with fear of failure and anxiety from the pressure of wanting to succeed. 

I've also coming up with a list of other milestones it would be so great to get back to along the road to the impossible goal.... 

Heaviest pregnancy weight: 128kg/281.6lbs ✅️

Fell pregnant with Rory: 124kg/272.8lbs ✅️

Fell pregnant with Elliott: 120kg/264lbs ✅️

Breastfeeding Elliott: 117kg/257lbs 

Wedding weight: 107kg/235.4lbs

Trying on wedding dresses: 102kg/224.4lbs

Book day Pippilongstockigs: 95kg/209lbs 

Final goal: 89kg/196lbs 




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