Meeting Susan!

Meeting Susan changed everything.... 

Susan is a coach. She is probably the most compassionate person I have ever met in my life. From the moment I met her, I felt safe and supported and I could tell that she genuinely wanted me to succeed in my weight loss goals. 

We had weekly zoom sessions for almost an entire year; and in that time we discovered so much about my eating habits, my chronic perfectionism, my all or nothing mindset, my absolute fear of failure and judgement from those around me when I deemed myself to have failed. 

I went from having a very negative self dialogue to relearning how to love myself now - even at a size that I didn't want to be. To love myself through the process and go into every day with curiosity and compassion and no judgement. That was so difficult at the beginning - I found it so hard not to tell myself off and criticise what I saw in the mirror. But week by week - I learned that it felt better to show myself grace and compassion whilst rewiring my brain around eat habits and food urges. 

Over all, it was going well! I was losing wight, it was slow going but it was going. 

I was having these amazing weekly sessions that I looked forward to so much - even though sometimes all I did was cry for an hour! 🫣 

I was feeling happier, calmer, prouder of myself. I had remember that I am so much more than the number on the scale - I was able to see it as just a number and not attach an emotion to that number. 

And then.... the weight lost stopped - even though I was in a calorie deficit, I had a 6 hour eating window and I was practically sugar free..... 

The weight loss just stopped.....